Tuesday, February 20, 2007

7.25 pm

7.25, still in front of the computer at my desk in my office .. trying to make the process of downloading move a bit faster....

augh......

only to find that the file went away to a better place where the good
files go when they've served the purpose... hahaha.... so i'm back down
loading all over again..... augh.....



listening to music that used to bring tears in my eyes blaring from the
stereo from across the room... hiks...hiks... could life be more
pathetic.... (oh yes they can! ) suddenly i found out that i couldn't
open my blog... i dunno why.... there goes years of my life down the
drain... phuey... pooo....



couldn't wait what more could life bring down on me....

well, all i could say is.. 'bring 'em on....' i think i could take it! i survived this far didn't i?

Thursday, February 15, 2007

carpe diem

carpe diem..
because you are no freer than a slave crawling east across the deck of a ship sailing west,
because your life is just a series of absurd waiting periods, and because you'll before you are fully born ..


....nice words I got from my great teacher....

Saturday, February 10, 2007

carpe diem

seize the day....i heard this line once in my early 20's,  from a movie called Dead Poet Society... I remember one of my good friend, who loved the movie, keep quoting the line to me (I think he thought that i was as smart as him and also, like him, i really understood the meaning of the word,,,,boy was he ever so wrong....hehehe). But in reality i havent the faintest idea what the word ment.... I always thought that it ment catch the opportunity or make your decision now.... or something like that... but actually it never dawn to me what making decision is.... BUT THAT WAS THEN, I WAS YOUNG AND FOOLISH....


Now.. I'm old and (still) foolish... but i think i understand a bit what carpe diem means (and so i thought).  it's about me making meaning in my own life.... and i didin't figure this all by my foolish self... i got a big help from a friend.. who just seize her day.. making her own future...


I envy her and wish her the best of luck, hoping one day i got her nerve of still and seize my own day....


(gosh..i'm getting misty typing this.... so i guess i better stop, coz it will be weird crying in an internet cafe alone on a saturday nite....hehehe)